May 18, 2014
I was coming back after having an amazing weekend and all along the car ride, my eyes were searching for you. But in vain, I counted six stars but not a single moon.
I am turning 19 and getting married in exactly three days.
That is huge. And I know it.
I am nervous. But not over the top nervous.
The one thing that scares me are the expectations people have of me and with me. And the assumptions everyone seems to make.
I do not care about what people think of me. But people I love, care about what others think. And my love for these people makes me care about people’s expectations. Its like they have already decided that I am going to fall off the ladder. And instead of holding the ladder, everyone is just watching and waiting for me to fall.
But I will not fall. I am not that weak. And you know it. I mean, you are a rock yourself.
I do not know what is going to happen. My life is going to change, that is a given. But one thing I am going to do is make sure that my foremost success is happiness.
My happiness and the people I love and care about, their happiness.
The rest will follow.
In time, I plan to accomplish everything I have dreamt of and planned for.
But you know what, I am still a little scared.
What do you think ? Do you think I will be able to do it all ? Do you think that life will give me a chance ? Or I will have to snatch it from life itself. Do you think that my optimism will be my doom ? Do you think that I will fall of the ladder ?
I leave you with that question.