This life that we live waits for no one. It’s like a train that never stops, whether you are on it or off it.
It’s been 33 days since Abbu’s accident and everyone seems to be living their lives. For us, everything has become a before and after of the accident. Bought Maybelline Eyeliner before the accident. Moawiz got in a huge fight after a week of the accident.
At first life just stops. You forget what time it is, let alone what day it is. You look at your phone’s time to check the visiting hours of ICU. Everything else just stops mattering. It does not matter that you needed new summer clothes. Or the youngest sibling has exams.
Your existence becomes a cycle of getting updates from the doctors, than sharing all that information with the rest of the world, praying as hard as you can while you stand straight supporting everyone else. You still eat. You still sleep. You still drive a car. But now you eat Criossants without tasting it. You sleep when you cannot stay awake any longer. You drive because you need to get to the hospital.
Everything becomes a need.
If you look around, you will see that the rest is still how it was. People are still shopping in malls. They are going on vacations, celebrating birthdays, giving exams and living their lives.
How do you live yours ? Do you just wake up and go to the gym like you did for the past 3 years ? Do you still eat Pizza on Thursdays ? Does life still make sense ? Does anything matter ?
While you sit and stare out of the window, the train moves on the tracks like it always did. It stops nowhere for no one. Because that is what it does.
The weirdest part is that we are also forced to live our lives. We still make sure to check facebook, meet friends on holidays, celebrate other people’s victories etc. We still buy presents and even wrap them. We make pasta and share it with the neighbours. Updating people becomes a normal routine like getting your teeth polished every six months.
In reality, nothing is the same. Abbu is always on my mind. It does not matter what I do or how I do it. Life has become this weird phenomenon where you do everything out of necessity. And people still do not leave you alone.
Make no mistake my friends, this life does not stop for the likes of you or me. So whether we like it or not, we have to live it.